There are some people that you talk to after such a long time. They know exactly how you’re feeling even if you joke around and say nothing about it at all. They cheer you up with words that will actually make you feel better or make things better for the moment.
Thanksss motiii <3
Its so funny how my thoughts on things have changed. Before the trip, half the time I would talk to my rents of my whole shaadi craze and now….either I understand why they don’t want me to get married so soon or that I just have a new perspective on some things. Like marriage…. Yeah, I do want to get married, but am I really going to be ready in 2 years…once I graduate uni? There’s so much to life still out there that I haven’t discovered. Not saying that I can’t do whatever I want to do once I’m married, but I don’t know. I’m just not so shaadicrazy anymore as I once was. It would be great if it happens because it will have its’ own perks.If I’m not married right now or am not by the time I graduate uni, honestly it isn’t something that I should weep and mope around about.
Be happy with what you have, make the most of your today, and don’t look into your wants so much. Everything has its own time and place. I have a new motive. I want to serve. I want to serve kids because I know it truly makes a difference. Maybe just for a little bit, but with ongoing support the little difference turns into something big.
I travelled all the way to Dominican Republic to serve the kids in El Castillo. I paid a little over 2,000 dollars for my trip. The changes it brought to my mind help me see the world a little different, a little better. The trip’s memories are something I’ll always cherish. I’m glad I had this opportunity Alhumdulillah. I’m also happy to know what I want to do with my life. Money should never be a motive of your passion or work. If you love doing it, it’ll never seem like a burden. Words of my wise ol’ pops :). I know what I want to do with my life, but I don’t know how to manage that with getting married exactly and all the duties that will come upon me as a wife, mother, daughter-in-law, and etc.
Sigh. Its better that I just live in the present for now. ….And I think I should get some sleep…..this random post was literally because of a picture I saw on tumblr. Dulhan and Dulha just spinning all cheerfull. Kind of just randomly made me sad and also happy. Just a spur of the moment post before I take a nap till Sehri time.